Happy New Year

 So, as 2013 comes to a close I am sitting here reflecting about it.  It has not been an easy year.  I have had so many struggles and triumphs.  I have been sick and well.  I have been happy and sad.  I have know this year what it means to be driven to your knees and to stay there in prayer till an answer is given. 

In 2013 I was in the hospital several times, had several flares, I have also have my heart broken, but what I have learned is that I am stronger that what I thought I was. 

Even though through our trials it is where we are defined I sometimes wish for less.  I have Elhers Danlos Syndrome and Fibromyalgia.  I have a disease without a face.  I look on the outside like I am normal 36 year old but, on the inside I am falling apart.  I hurt everyday, I am in pain every moment of everyday with no end in sight.  I hope this year to have a team of doctors that can help me instead of hinder me.  I will also only let those in my life who add to and do not take away from the quality of it.

My daughters are the best and the loves of my life.  I hope to this year to show them that no one else matters.  My oldest is 17 and the youngest is 12.  They are my greatest work.  I love them with all me heart, mind and strength.  They are my world.

I hope that as we go into this new year that we may be able to learn from our past but, not live in it.  I hope and pray that we may find ourselves.  I hope that we find joy and happiness in the small things for they are what add up and form the moments of our lives.

Have a wonderful new year and my 2014 bring you all you need and what brings you closer to those you love and care for.